summer is coming....

I can feel it...

sunscreen smells...

fresh cut grass...

popsicles mustaches....

watermelon dripping....

Things I want to do with 

my family this summer....

Summer reading programs...

Make your own chalk...

Camping on the trampoline....{I did this last summer and it was a BLAST!}

Fourth of July parade...

Make your own suckers....

Paint my bedroom....

Hike 8 mile lake in Leavenworth...

Smores in our backyard....

Smiles....

{We're making the big summer check list next week!!}

Now we just need the sun!
~Amy

just thinking...

a few months ago, we found out we were pregnant.  A complete shock to us...we weren't trying and one little mishap with the pill and we saw two little lines, on lots of sticks.  

My hubby was excited...he was ready and willing.  I, was in shock, and I cried LOTS.  (The hormones were in full motion!)  The cries of 'why did this happen?' and 'I was just completely happy with my 3 little ones'!!  After a week, I came to terms with it and prayed, Lord, you've got this!  And felt peace...

A day later, I miscarried.

My 'due date' is coming up...tax day.

Lots of friends I know are getting pregnant and having babies...

I didn't think I would be having weird feelings...

I was actually relieved.

I felt selfish.  And I still feel selfish!  Why would I want that to not happen?

How could I be happy with that outcome?  Months later, I think I'm mourning the loss...I've had a miscarriage before when our Cole was just 2 years old...we were trying, and I was devastated!

I said to my close friends that I'm okay with the outcome, that I felt like it was a conformation with my heart, knowing I'd be okay if we were done, that I'm ready to close that chapter...and I truly believed that.  I still do...

Just some thoughts wondering about that baby...and if we ever really truly feel 'done'.

starting them early...

He can now order his own Starbucks drink....

AND his mama's bold drip with half n' half and two Sweet N' Low!

He's my little coffee buddy!  Not bad for a 4 year old!

I love having you as my side kick!

a day in the life...

well....because this blog is about me....I get to post about my kids....

I look at them and can't believe I'm a mama to these three wonderful spirited, sassy, sweet children!

My days are full...

Yesterday I had a bad day....you have to have those every so often....just so you can appreciate the good days....just thinking about life.

I'm so thankful....good friends who rally behind you...

hubby who sticks by you and smirks when you're crabby....

photography business has been so busy and I'm so humbled by this opportunity!  

Still can't believe that people call me and say they like my work...

the doubting Thomas creeps in there...

So today, I choose to be FULL!  How can I not be?!?!

ho hum.....

I can't believe summer is over....

Our oldest will be 9 in just a few weeks....he's starting 3rd grade....LOVE HIM!

Peyton is turning 6....She starts Kindergarten...she's nervous and scared...wants to stay home with me!  She seems so grown up....yet, still so little!  LOVE HER!

Peyton & Cole

Evan....he's home with Mama this year....I'm holding onto him as much as I can...no preschool this year...he's totally fine with it...he's actually ready to start Kindergarten with Peyton!  LOVE HIM!

Three little Monkeys!

In front of their school!

While we try to teach our children all about life,
Our children teach us what life is all about.
~Angela Schwindt

just a glimpse of what I've been doing....

How is your summer going?  I'd love to hear!!

xoxoxox

Things I'm learning...

I learned this month that you have some friends that last a lifetime...some you can just pick up and catch up right where you left off....

I learned that I've got some good friends in my life...

I ran my first 12K with Andy and some friends last weekend.  It was just absolutely the most fun I've had in such a long time!  I had a goal of finishing in 74 minutes....I finished in 74:01  ONE SECOND!!  It was great!  They have a HUGE hill they call Doomsday Hill and I ran the entire beast!  

It was a great training for our upcoming race in June.  I decided that a full marathon would not be a good thing for me right now...I have WAY too much on my plate and that I can work in a half instead...HOW CRAZY IS THAT RATIONALE????

Life is still moving...looking forward to warmer weather and some sunshine!  We're heading to NYC and the East Coast in about a month...I just can't wait to head back to our old stomping grounds!

Hope you are all having a Happy May!!